Well Hello Again

Did you miss me? I didn't mean to disappear for so long. Seems the longer you stay away from blogging the harder it is to get back in the groove. I kept meaning to sit down and write an awesome re-entry post, but it just wasn't happening. Then I decided I'd better just sit down and post. Do you ever do that? You want to do something perfectly, so you keep putting it off and 5 years later your son still doesn't have any pictures in his babybook. I'm trying hard not to let perfectionism keep me from getting things done, but I still find myself falling back into it every once in a while.

I mentioned before that the kids were visiting their grandparents the last week of September. I never realized how exhausted I'd been feeling, but when my older 3 left and it was just Simon and I in the house all day, the quiet was bliss. I felt my energy returning and like I was able to take on life again. I had one day of yarn shopping which was so much fun. Being up close to yarn and touching and seeing is wonderful for my visual self. All goals and plans of limiting yarn buying went right out the window! But did your really expect anything else of me? Then Peter, Simon and I spent 3 days in Kelowna with our friends. The majority of our time was spent wine touring which was something I've never done before. As much as I missed my older 3, I really appreciated all the one on one with Simon and the time to really enjoy my husband. I've been missing him lately.

While in Kelowna I visited my great grandfather, who was in the hospital. He has been unwell for a while and getting worse. I wanted to see him since it may have been one of my last opportunities. Peter accompanied me to his hospital room and it was one of the most difficult experiences I have had. He was in a lot of pain and didn't recognize me. I held his hand and prayed for him, but I wished I could have done more. He died the next day. I still don't know where to put my thoughts about everything. It shook me a lot more than I thought it would and I will be mulling things over in my mind for a long time. I wasn't very close to my grandfather, but death is such a personal thing I felt like a peeping tom or something, but at the same time I'm glad I was there and able to say goodbye.

The last week has been about getting things back to normal with the kids. We never really get to normal, something always throws us for a loop, but we try.

And that gets me all updated. I'm sitting here in my jammies with a cup of tea, I have about an hour before the kids get up and I am hoping to get a head start on them today. Talk to you soon.

Comments

[Mandy]

So sorry to hear about your grandfather. *Hugs*

[turtlegirl76]

I'm sorry to hear about your grandfather. =( But at least you got the chance to see him and say goodbye.

[Fiber Chic]

I'm very sorry about your great-grandfather...Hugs sent your way!
Hope you get to normal soon (whenever "soon" may be!)

[Pat]

The picture of Daddy and the boys is precious!
I'm glad you're back - it sounds like life was very full while you were away.

[Allison]

Welcome back to posting! I do the same thing, holding out for perfection when, really, just SOMETHING, anything would do.

I'm so sorry for your loss, but I'm glad you got to say goodbye.

[Erin]

Welcome back! So sorry for your loss.

[JulieFrick]

Oh, what a wonderful treat! Time with the husband...I'm missing that, too, and the Fricklet's only two weeks old!

[Rachel]

Welcome back to the blog! I'm glad you had some good time away, though I'm sorry your experience with your great-grandfather's passing was so difficult. I'm glad you have your big and noisy and not-quite-normal family to hold you up. :)